After spending a week in Raleigh eating southern food, I was a little worried when I stepped on the scale this morning. Which is why I gave myself awhile to catch up. Surprisingly, I was down! I hit a milestone: 20 pounds lost since I started on this (most recent) weight loss journey.
While that might seem like a big amount, I have a lot to go. And the annoying thing is, I have lost and regained that same 20 pounds countless times over the past eight years. Which is why even though it’s a success, I am really looking forward to weight loss surgery.
Next week is our last “supervised diet” visit before we submit to insurance for gastric sleeve surgery. We will hopefully have our tentative surgery date.
Part of me still feels like this is taking the easy way out, although I know that this will NOT be an easy journey! A smaller stomach will merely be a tool to help prevent overeating, and provide a forced detox of sorts. Surprisingly, my holistic health counselor, naturopath, and yoga instructor have all been supportive. They don’t recommend surgery as a general rule, but they have seen how hard I have worked on internal stuff. This is just one more step and I know that I will still need to make good choices about what I put in my smaller stomach. I am also hoping that DH and I will be able to continue and increase the exercise that we’ve been doing. How I missed bicycling and running!
As my yoga instructor said last night, it’s not even about losing the weight. It’s about becoming a whole person again. I am looking forward to seeing that 20 pounds gone once and for all, and a lot more besides!
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